Crazy is as crazy does

Well this last week or so has been very, very crazy. I have buried my last living Grandparent, traveled to the country 2 days in row, once for the aforementioned funeral then to celebrate my grandmother in laws 69th birthday, fought with my kids to go to VBS, watched a town mourn the loss of a resident who died for our country, tried everyday not to cry over every sad song or thought I had, worked 36 hours, found out that I will forever be steroid dependant, celebrated Father's Day 2 days in a row, and took my daughter to the dr. today to find out she has swollen lymph nodes on the back of head. I am truly, truly exausted. Looking forward to a slow week, but that will drive me crazy I'm sure.

My house is a disaster to say the least but I keep telling myself it will be there tomorrow and then tomorrow comes and goes with nothing done, my garden is growing along with the grass in it, next year we will for sure do it differently but for now we live and learn, I'm sure July will bring lots of canning of the produce my sister and I have grown.

I know everyone else probably has it worse than I do but for now it's my turn to feel sorry for myself, I've been pretty strong since last Thursday, well for me anyway. I went to the funeral pretty much alone have felt like I have no reason to be sad I wasn't close to her, I resented her alot for the way she treated me like i wasn't good enough for the rest of them, heck they all treat me like that. But truth beknown I was sad but trust that she is with our Father and is no longer in pain and knows who we all are and can now know all that I have accomplished in my life. I will forever remember the day she passed tho, since it was on my anniversary, haha Grandma couldn't resist getting that last dig in on me. RIP Grandma tell Grandpa I said hi.